Hello my little Vintage Darlings ♡
Today’s enchanting post is going to be more of a personal one as it’s something I’ve been dealing with for the past week. That being the not so wonderful feeling of self-doubt. It’s something I unfortunately deal with often and though it is one of my goals this year to lessen it and believe in myself more, it still pops up every once in awhile. I’m sure many of you beauties out there can relate.
For as long as I can remember, self-doubt has had too much of a role in my life. Many times I have let these feelings of doubt take over and stop me from doing the things I loved most. Things that would be the first step in creating my dream life were tossed away simply because I chose to believe in my own negativity. I let these thoughts have control over my happiness and make me feel as if I’ll never be good enough, that I’ll never make it anywhere, and never find my place.
I’ve always been a big dreamer. One of my biggest dreams since I was just a child was to be my own boss and create something wonderful that I could call my own. I wanted to do something that made me happy and that I could be so proud of. I never wanted to have work for someone else in a job I would most likely never feel truly passionate about. Always in love with the arts, I wanted to create and inspire. Even at such a young age I had these wishes and hopes for myself. I always told myself growing up that, “Someday, somehow we will get there. We’ll make it and have the most amazing business.” But as I grew older and the words of other people who only wanted to bring me down were whispered to me day after day, those feelings of self-doubt crept in.
As a child people would laugh and say “keep dreaming kid” as if my dreams were laughable and unrealistic. As if I’d never be able to achieve them. Instead of people encouraging me and believing in me that I could be and do anything, they just kept trying to crush those dreams. Of course I was still a child, so that doubt hadn’t settled in yet. I was stubborn and I told them that I’d prove them all wrong someday. 
As the years went on and my dreams evolved, people’s laughter grew, namely my own family’s. They unfortunately never believed in me or encouraged me to reach for my dreams. Anytime I would start to put forward the work towards achieving that end goal, they would be right there to tell me I’d never make it. That I’d end up giving up and that it would never work. That I’m better off working at a minimum wage job that would never fulfill me. The worst was when they’d tell me I’d never amount to anything in life. As a dreamer, those words completely crushed me.
Sadly I let those words affect me negatively and in walked self-doubt. As I would be working on the things to get me to the finish line, I would suddenly start having thoughts that this was all pointless. Putting in all this work and effort is for nothing as I’ll never make it. I’m simply just not good enough or cut out for this life, so I should just give up now…and I did. I would always give up and let my own doubts win. It would hurt me so bad to do so and I would end up crying alone in my room feeling like I was letting myself down. Like I was letting the younger version of me with big dreams down.
There were times when I would set my mind to something I truly wanted,little things, and I went out and got it, but whenever it came to the big goal, doubt has always stopped me. What I want more than anything in life is to grow my blog and turn it into my own little business. Not only do I want it be a magical space to put my words out into the world and inspire others and let them know they’re not alone and it will all be okay, but I want it to become my business. Something I created for myself so that I can say that I finally am doing the job I love because I wholeheartedly love blogging and for once I think I finally found my niche after six years on WordPress.
Though this past week, self-doubt has come back to visit. I can’t help but have thoughts of not being good enough to have my blog grow and to be noticed. There’s no possible way I’ll ever make it as a blogger and this blog will never go anywhere. I’ve already noticed a decrease in engagement, so I must already be losing my touch. No one will care to read it and keep coming back, so I should just give up now right?
But I’m not. I’ve given up too many times in the past and threw away any progress I was starting. I refuse to let the future of this blog become yet another ‘what if’ in my life. It’s not easy to ignore my doubts and I’m sure they’ll be back to trying and make me give up again, but I have to push through for the sake of my dreams.
I’m still doubting this blog as I sit here and type these very words, but luckily with the help of the amazing loves who have been supporting me so far, the encouraging words I read from another blog to beginners, and wonderful quotes I’ve found on Pinterest, I know I’ll get through it.
To any of you out there also dealing with self-doubt, you can push past it. Don’t ever let it stop you from living the life you want the most. If you feel you have no one that believes in you in right now, I believe in you. I believe you can do anything you set your beautiful mind to. ♡
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Start off your enchanting Valentine’s Day by picking out a lavish outfit that makes you feel the most like a princess and makes you feel like you’re shining from the inside out. For such a romantic holiday, I personally suggest a romantic dress or ethereal tulle skirt in an adorable blush pink. You’ll feel incredibly girly and sweet! Take the time to do some pirouettes in the gorgeous outfit you chose and just let your true self show.
Always one to try out new enchanting scents, last month I fell in love with two; 24K Blush and Pink Gold. Both being inexpensive and from PINK, these are dreamy, warm scents that are like wrapping a fluffy blanket around you in the middle of winter. They’re just so light and delicate, the perfect kind of scents for the colder months. Packaged in beautiful rose gold and pink bottles, they’ve made my vanity area look even more princessy. If you have the chance to try one of these, I truly recommend them!
The next magical product I favored this month had me feeling like a dainty fairy all month long. With a delightful pink color that looks as if it’s delicious pink frosting, Lush’s Snow Fairy had my heart in January. Not only did it make my delicate skin feel buttery smooth, but it left behind the faint scent of sweet spun sugar that lasted for hours after my shower.
Moving on from beauty, I just have to share my absolute favorite candle of the month. With a gorgeous mint green color, Bath & Body Work’s White Mint Latte won me over. Not only did the beautiful packaging fit in with my decor, the smell was delightfully dreamy. Smelling just like a warm freshly made peppermint mocha wafting all throughout the room, this candle is the most perfect one for the winter months. I’m truly going to be sad when I completely burn through this candle.
Not all of my favorite fashion items have been clothing, this next piece that captivated me last month is this lavish, fluffy scarf. With an amazingly soft faux fur, this blush pink scarf has kept me incredibly warm all month long. Not only is it warm, but it made me feel like a fancy snow bunny!
The first thing I got was this delicate little velvet set. I’ve been in love with velvet for so long, so I was extremely happy when PINK got in on this trend. When I saw this set I just knew I had to have it. It’s so soft, light, and has a dainty floral print that’s perfect for the spring. The best part is I got both pieces for only $10.95!
These lovely pieces were in the sleep separates section. Originally I saw the shorts first and loved how delicate they looked. There’s blush pink hearts all over the white shorts and the material is so light and airy! When I was searching for a top to match these, I came across the ribbed sleep Henley and saw the absolute most gorgeous color for spring! It’s called Harbor Grey and it’s the prettiest dusty pastel green shade. It just reminds me so much of spring and makes me want to buy everything they have in this color. Another reason I really like the Henley’s is because of the dainty lace detailing around the neck of the top. It’s adds just the tiniest touch of girlyness!
The next two pieces I bought are also sleep separates, but from the PINK side. They’re new items for spring and they’re so soft! I just had to have this pastel tie dye sleep crew, it just looked so pretty; the color of it is even more gorgeous and pastel in person. To match I got these cute, little mint green shorts and the color on these is simply adorable!
The first thing I’m doing on this beautiful winter morning is taking care of my skin. The chilly winter wind can be harsh on skin, so to help it I like to gently exfoliate my face whenever I need it. I then follow up with my new favorite face cleanser, Lancôme’s Crème-Mousse Confort Comforting Cleansing Creamy-Foam with Rose Extract. It’s gentle on delicate skin and smells like romantic roses in the spring. It’s the perfect thing to add to any princess’s morning routine!
Reaching for my tulle Victoria’s Secret champagne and rose gold robe, I put it on and feel even more princess like. The robe is so light and airy, it just makes me feel so fancy. The sleeves are ruffled out and there’s rose gold stars sprinkled all over it. It’s such a whimsical design.
While the tea cools, I take out my matching Rose Confetti teacup and saucer; the dainty floral print of this collection makes me feel like a princess at tea time. Pouring myself a steaming cup of tea, I take a seat on the couch in my makeup room, resting against the rosy pillows. With a fluffy blush pink blanket gingerly wrapped around my shoulders, I prepare to have a princessy movie marathon with movies like Cinderella, Beauty and the Beast, Roman Holiday, Marie Antoinette, and of course one of my all time favorites, The Aristocats. 
As the end of the day draws near and the stars are starting to sprinkle across the night sky, I welcome the night with a fancy bath.
Hello my Vintage Darlings ♡
It’s time for that to change in 2018. I’m going to treat myself like the princess I deserve to be and if that bothers people, (the way that I hold myself, write about what I’m doing, dress, treat myself, etc) then that says more about them than it ever will about me. I’m going to do what makes me happy and what makes me, me. It may take a while for me to get there, but I will eventually.
